depression (commonly described as sadness but may also mean boredom)

i've been kinda depressed lately. not only have i been expieriencing overwhelming sadness but i've been pretty bored, 2. i'm not trying 2 complain, i'm just saying that if the few things keeping me alive right now didn't exist, i would have shot myself in the head already. all i need 2 live is the internet, baseball, football, my phone, horses, photography, criminology, books, plaid, and good music. out of the millions of things in the world, those r the only things. other than that, i just feel like dying.

come on!!!

my friend mariana and i have been emailing over our mobile devices lately. she has an iPod touch that can send emails. i have an iPod touch and a phone that can b used 2 email. my iPod was stolen and hidden by nathan katica (i rly dont give a fuck if i spelled his name right or wrong), so i have 2 use my phone, which is rly cool bcuz i get radio and wi-fi on it. i believe i know where my iPod and old phone r, but i'll have 2 wait until school starts again 2 go look 4 them. anyhow, since the ppl @ verizon couldn't transfer my contacts from my old phone 2 my new phone, i need 2 get ppl's numbers again. so i've been asking mariana 4 her number over email but i'm not getting it. come on, mariana. while i'm waiting 4 her 2 reply, i'll b emailing others 4 their numbers.

help me please

this person's car alarm has been going off for five fucking minutes. i cant stand it. it just sounds like a constant blaring horn. it's 12 in the morning. and nobody wants 2 get out of fucking bed and shut their car up. i mean, something in ur car could b gone. y dont u get up and check? obviously, somebody did something 2 ur car. the alarm just doesnt go off by itself. so get the hell off ur lazy ass and go check it out.

milk?

i was surprised and disappointed 2 see that we were low on milk. poured myself a bowl of cereal. i went to the fridge 2 get milk, and i thought it felt kind of light. so i poured it in2 the bowl and almost nothing happened 2 it. so, i'm just like, "SHIT BUCKET!!!" now, i dunno if i should call my mom and tell her or not. cuz i dunno if she's going 2 the store or not. it would most definitely make sense 2 call her and ask.

my website

i've been editing my site a lot lately. it's kurtwaskilled.weebly.com. it's about kurt cobain. i believe he was murdered. basically, my site is based off of the investigation i'm conducting. so i've posted some interviews that i wish to have with ppl that were involved in kurt's life, death, and death investigation. i plan on moving to seattle to start my own business and maybe b a musician. i wanna move there after i graduate from college. i hope to go 2 valdosta state. so once i'm done there, i'll move 2 seattle and open my business, sign a contract with sub pop, and maybe find the ppl i want 2 interview 4 this case. i still need 2 post some interview questions but i have 2 come up with them first. so i'll update my site often. see ya there!

me

fave color: red
fave band: nirvana
fave song: fade by staind
fave word: fuck
fave food: chocolate
fave drink: gatorade
fave number: 3
fave singer: kurt cobain
fave guitarist: kurt cobain
fave bassist: krist noveselic
fave drummer: chad channing
fave website: youtube
fave girls name: lilian
fave boys name: charlie
fave sport: baseball
fave candy: caramel
fave anime: bleach
fave animal: horse/dog/cat
fave soda: root beer
fave greek god: posidon
fave show: i (almost) got away with it
fave movie: the sand lot
fave baseball team: braves/phillies/nationals/mariners/blue jays/pirates
fave football team: vikings/steelers/seahawks
fave flavor gum: original
fave type of chocolate: milk chocolate
fave soda brand: pepsi
fave subject: advisory
fave book: house of leaves
fave magazine: shonen jump
fave comic strip: garfield
fave flavor gatorade: glacier freeze
fave flavor powerade: fruit punch
fave vending machine snack: honeybun
fave forum: theforumsite.com and grungeforum.com
fave mythical creature: dragons
fave time of day: night
fave holiday: halloween
fave type of music: grunge/rock/metal/alternative/indie
fave nirvana song: scoff
fave metallica song: enter sandman
fave papa roach song: getting away with murder
fave breaking benjamin song: without you
fave three days grace song: no more/last to know
fave nickelback song: saving me/far away
fave three doors down song: citizen soldier/loser
fave queens of the stone age song: no one knows
fave framing hanley song: alone in this bed
fave five finger death punch song: far from home
fave pearl jam song: the fixer
fave stone temple pilots song: tripping on a hole in a paper heart
fave five for fighting song: superman
fave ice cream flavor: chocolate chip cookie dough

san bruno fire

so about all those california fires... the one in san bruno was HUGE!!! i remember watching a video on it. the person who posted it thought their house was on fire when they went home. it wasn't, though. but that fire was big. there was a natural gas pipe explosion in someone's back yard. if the home owners were there, then they're dead. if they weren't, lucky them. but i know the ppl who lived next door survived because they weren't present at the time of the explosion. YAY! i dunno if anybody died. i need 2 do research. i'll just take the time out to google search "san bruno fire." and ya know what's confusing? some houses were on fire, the houses behind the burning houses were fine, and the houses behind the houses NOT burning were in flames. that's so strange. but it's scary. not only are the houses burning, but the cars r being turned 2 ash as well. i'm just glad i don't live in this neighborhood. bcuz if i did, i'd either be homeless or living in a tiny pent house apartment. or maybe a residential hotel, which would actually b pretty awesome. but where would u find one of those? there probably isn't one in san bruno. when i'm in college studying criminal investigation, i'll go there over the summer and i'll look. but i really hope that neighborhood gets rebuilt and that natural gas problems get fixed bcuz natural gas companies can b pretty stupid. so that's y they always have problems. and they spend all that money to get the problems solved just so they can reoccur. that's a whole lotta money. who has the time 2 spend all that money let alone fix the goddamn problem on my own time? they'd still have 2 spend money, though. then the line would explode and cause another fire. it could be the size of the san bruno fire. but it might b bigger. it could b smaller, too. i just know that the san bruno fire could cost millions of dollars. that's just pitiful. america's tax dollars r supposed 2 go in2 paying teachers. now, it's going 2 fire damage in california.